So... I'm very, very close to finishing the last chapters of Lithaeum. For those of you who don't know, that's the book I've been working on for YEARS. And at first, I couldn't wait for it to be finished, but now that the end is coming near, I'm frozen in fear. I'm stupid.
I think I'm afraid of finishing it, letting it go. I'm at chapter 42 now, and I've been stuck there for a few weeks. With every letter, every word, the end comes closer. The fact that it's almost finished is always in the back of my mind, with everything I write. I suppose it's a very selective writer's block, because I can still rant and rave in my journal, poems and other drabbles. But Lithaeum...
Maybe I'm going to miss the characters too much. They've become almost like friends to me, people I know really well. I'm afraid to say goodbye. Of course, there will be more books in this series, but still... this is the first one, the one I've been planning for years. And to suddenly see it so close to being completed feels weird.

At this rate, it'll take me months to actually write those last eight chapters. Of course, a lot will happen in those chapters and that's when I usually write really fast. But somehow, I'm afraid of going too fast this time. And yet I don't want it to take months. Gods, someone, tell me something encouraging. I'm scared, and fear either makes me not write at all, or just slip into writer's block. HALP! X3